One month. That's all that's left of 2015. I keep looking back on this year, trying to figure out whether I've actually accomplished anything. I feel like I've been running in place, grasping at straws and making an all out ass of myself. I can't be alone in this, right?
It seems I like to just fly by the seat of my pants most days and that doesn't work for me. I know it doesn't work, but I've done little to fix it. NO MORE. I am putting some new things into place in December that will help to keep me engaged with my "fans" and connections, free up my computer time to do things that are actually productive and give me some much needed time to spend with my family.
One of the most frustrating parts of this business is the saturation of the market. There are SO MANY authors out there who've published in some capacity. A good portion of them are great, but there are those who need more practice that are ruining it for the rest of us. I hate to sound like I'm full of myself (which if you've read any of my work at all, you know that's not me), but I like to think my talent is at least above the average author. When I see other authors see success when their skill level is lacking, to put it nicely, I get extremely discouraged. Not to say that their stories aren't wonderful, but the delivery leaves something to be desired in some cases.
But I digress. My personal feelings about the publishing world is pretty much irrelevant. Every author dreams of something bigger and I'm no different. Unfortunately, I just don't have those types of connections to make it happen, which is why I have been struggling as of late. I'm sure you've seen me say "Procrastination is my superpower" at some point and I am definitely not lying about that. Sometimes, it gets so bad that I'm up until 6 am just trying to finish a scene or task. It can get pretty ridiculous. This is also why I'm working on correcting my terrible behavior!
That being said, I hope to have another book coming out around the first of the year that is completely different from everything else. You might have seen Falling Undercover listed on my social media or even seen the page on my website. It is a romantic suspense novel that I hope won't completely suck :p.
Well, I'm off to write for about an hour before I have to sleep to go back to my real life job (highly overrated, I know). Happy reading, loves!
If you've kept up with any of my previous posts, you'd know that I'm a bit of a work-a-holic. Aside from writing, I have a full time job and a home based business. I am also a wife and mother and pretty much tired all the time as a result. HOWEVER....I sometimes think that if I didn't have these things, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I mean, after YEARS of constantly working on projects in what little spare time I have, when I decide not to do anything at all, I feel like a bum. Crazy, right?
Turns out, I think I might be addicted to this life. I try very hard to make time for everything, but I struggle, depending on what needs more attention at the time. There may be a time where I decide not to pursue all of my current ventures, but I can't bring myself to let anything go right now. So, please tell me I'm not the only one?
Or am I?
I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one who lives through the "when it rains, it pours" mentality, but damn it's been a hurricane lately. It's hard to keep your head when everything seems to be falling apart, but then again, that's kind of the point of life, right? I mean, we're built to survive, even when we're at the worst points in life. At least that's what I choose to believe.
As a writer, I live vicariously through my characters. The loves, losses, adventures and everything in between fills the parts of me that craves these things. So what if it's all in my head? I can say that at least I've lived it in a sense. Reading is the only thing you can do that provides endless lives to live and relive. You can be in Narnia one day and the next in Forks, WA. Writers get to create those worlds and then relive them again and again. It's no wonder some of us go insane.
Until next time....
It's constant; like a current. Words, phrases, ideas, thoughts, plots, names, things, things....so many damn things. Sometimes it's exhausting and debilitating. Sometimes I feel like I need a dial to turn it down. Sometimes I have no idea what's going on. What I do know is that I'd probably be clinically insane if anyone took the time to notice.
So what's the cure? You tell me! I watch a lot of Netflix (usually stuff pertaining to what I'm writing), read a lot of books (same genres as shows) and jot down notes whenever possible. The last thing I want to do is forget something that might be important. Of course to someone like me, even the description of a person's voice could be tantamount to an entire 80k word novel. It's the little things, right?
Call me crazy. Call me brilliant (which is a stretch). Call me a creative soul. But not one person can call me lazy.
What do you do to turn down the white noise?
I'm not sure if any authors are like me, but after pouring my brain into a story, I need to recharge. I envy those who can just pick up story after story without needing a break or time in between. I envy them, but I'm also glad I'm not one of them. Having this time gives me the opportunity to read novels I may have put off because of working on my book, which there are many burning a hole through my Nook and Kindle (yes I have both). Sometimes it also gives me the time to plot and plan my next book because they don't always flow from the start. Lastly, but most importantly, I have to make time to spend with my family or on other business ventures I partake in (I'm a workaholic).
I will never NOT be a writer (I know, terrible grammar there). Since I was seven, I've been writing in some form or fashion and I know this is what my passion truly is. Maybe I'm wired differently or maybe I'm only destined to write books that can only be counted on two hands. Either way, I crave the interim almost as much as the month long writing binges. We all need an obsession just the same as we need the distractions.
I'm a writer, a mother, a wife, a friend, a sister, and a daughter. My journey as a published author is in full swing and I'm inviting all my friends along for the ride!