Bruh. When shit needs to happen, it happens for real! I mean, I went from being basically bedridden to running around from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed. Sleep? Sleep is fleeting, but the five or so hours I get has to keep me fueled. Ugh...life.
So at the end of the day, I'm not much closer to having my next book finished and I'm super sorry and annoyed by it. Every time I sit down to write, I fall asleep. I mean, I have a seven month old, guys. He is just now starting to really sleep through the night and when my husband isn't waking me up for snoring, I'm in a constant state of semi-awakeness that leaves me feeling drained and in a foggy state of mind. Truly, I need a recharge button.
My oldest child is beginning his football season, which throws another crazy thing into the mix. I will have to go from work to the ball field for two hours and back home again to put all the kids to bed. Mind you, that occurs three days a week and since I live in Satan's asshole (aka Tennessee), the humidity often brings the heat index over 100 in July and August so I'm going to be a SUPER happy person! Honestly, I might bitch about it, but I'd do anything for my kids, including losing sleep and precious moments in air conditioning so long as it means they get to do something they love.
I'm going to set a goal, though. I am going to release two novellas before September. One is my shifter story and the other will be Blood Promise. I think if I take an hour a day, I can get it done. I think...maybe...don't hate me if it doesn't happen!
Anyway, I am off to finish my giant glass of wine and catch some much needed z's. Lord knows I need all the rest I can get because soon I will be sleeping on my feet! 'Til next time!!
There has been a lot of buzz among the indie publishing community about authors who are deciding to no longer publish because of how hard it is to break through. While I understand this sentiment, if that's the only reason why you're writing, then maybe you shouldn't publish anymore.
I don't write with the intention of selling millions of books, although that would be my dream and has been since I was a young girl. I write because I have stories to tell and characters who deserve voices and because I love it. It is my craft. It is my therapy. It is one of the only things I have to actually call my own in this world. Why should I let the opinion of others diminish that for me?
Look, I am by no means faulting these authors. This is a tough business. The people in this industry are brutal. If you are original, no one wants to take a chance. If you are too similar, you will be considered a hack. The majority of the successful authors fall somewhere in the middle and I'm not too sure how much of that is by chance rather than choice. Sometimes people do what they must to survive and likely, this is the case with many authors in the world now.
Would I love to be a best selling author and have movies or TV shows made about the characters and worlds I create? You bet your ass I would, but just because it's not happening, that doesn't mean I need to give up on something I love and has been such a huge part of my life. I may not have a gift. I may be a talentless fool. But at the end of the day, if I'm doing what I love, what does it matter?
The bottom line: if you truly are in love with what you do, you won't be able to stop because nothing will feel right if you do. If sales matter more to you than your craft, it might be time to take a break and reevaluate why you started in the first place. Never let anyone take away something you love.
It's no secret I've been struggling with getting the remaining books of Legacy of Secrets finished. After having my baby back in December, I've been struggling with my time in general. Life literally changed over night! So now, I'm in a rut of sorts, trying to get my mind working again. Characters are screaming at me all day, but so far, I haven't been able to get anything done.
I wish I had a little leprechaun that could pop out of my ear and write all the words floating around in my head. I wish I had more of me to be able to do everything I want without sacrificing the time with my family. I WISH, I WISH, I WISH!!!
Currently, I'm on the prowl for a PA (personal assistant) who is proficient online and in the community, but that doesn't change an arm and a leg. Paying hundreds of dollars a month just isn't feasible right now. I'm also looking for some beta readers and possible an author to co-write a book with in the future. Lastly, I am always in the market for a screenwriter to write and pitch my books to companies like Netflix (wishful thinking, I know).
If you are or know anyone who falls into these categories, send me a message!! I'd love to see what's out there for me!
'Till next time!
Life is full of crossroads.
Some of us look for pros and cons before making a decision and some of us just go with our gut. What holds true to all of us is that often these choices have us facing things in life we hadn't expected. While, at the time, we might be struggling or feeling as if we can't push on, we are learning a lesson desperately needed to put us on the necessary path.
I'm a firm believer in everything happening for a reason. I believe the universe puts us on certain paths to learn certain things as a means to understand our existence and share our knowledge with others. We are here to learn and grow and make those who come after us wiser by sharing the knowledge of the universe.
As a writer, I often pour my emotions into my work as well as life experiences, to a degree. I haven't experienced everything my characters have, mostly because I don't live in an actual fantasy world (how I wish!), but I can empathize with how they may react in certain situations.
So why the post? I'm coming to a crossroads, myself. How do I choose which way to go? Do I need to abandon something I love for something necessary? Is there a way to keep everything in my life? Is this one of those times that the lesson means more than the thing I'm giving up?
How do I choose when it's all important to me in one way or another? Deep down, I think I know what my decision needs to be, but I still want to be sure that I'm making the right choice. I've come to the apex of things and will need to make a choice soon, but I don't quite know what I should choose.
How do you make important choices? What do you weigh when deciding things?
So what I'm about to talk about has nothing to do with the book world, although I know that similar issues arise in all areas of life. One of the biggest issues plaguing my day-to-day lately has been drama. I. HATE. DRAMA. There are people that I've stopped speaking to in the last several years because they carry drama with them everywhere, like a blanket of hate that they just drape all over everything and everyone around them. It's exhausting, unnecessary and completely childish.
I like to think that I can conduct myself fairly well as an adult and handle my relationships as such. I don't like confrontation, but I'm not afraid of it either. If I have a problem with someone, I try to talk it out because you never know when there's just a misunderstanding. However, I'm also one of the rare breed of people who can separate their work life and personal life. This means that if I have a disagreement with someone on a working matter, it likely will not carry over outside of work because I don't tend to bring work home with me if I can help it. I'm realizing that this is a rarity.
One of my faults is honesty. I say this is a fault because people DO NOT like honesty. It often hurts or makes them uncomfortable. I just prefer not beating around the bush because, well, what's the point? We're all adults, right? Shouldn't we be able to handle criticism by now? Shouldn't we be able to differentiate between constructive and destructive criticism? Am I just living in La-La Land? Is there some unspoken rule that I don't know about which dictates that this thinking is wrong?
Each day, I have to remind myself that there are people who can't, don't or won't see things this way. These people aren't wrong, but different and that's okay. I guess what boggles my mind is the reluctance to adapt to change and overcome challenges that exist in the real world. I don't understand how these things are feared. I don't understand how people are so frightened of something as silly as switching from writing something on paper to typing it in an email because heaven forbid it's not the same as it used to was (improper grammar intended). It just doesn't make any sense.
In closing, CHANGE IS GOOD! Change makes the world go 'round. Without change, we wouldn't be where we are technologically or socially, for that matter (although one might argue not ALL of the social change has been good). If nothing ever changed, nothing would ever get done. It's just that plain and simple. With that being said, the number one thing that requires change is often ourselves. Whether we realize it or not, we must continue to evolve as individuals in order to survive and that's just the way it is. If I didn't evolve, I wouldn't be able to form intelligent and legible sentences or thoughts. If I didn't evolve, I wouldn't be able to properly mother my children or wife-like to my husband. Most of all, if I haven't evolved, I wouldn't see these problems existing around me on a daily basis. Unfortunately, we can't force anyone to see these things or to do anything to change them. All we can do is look inside and use what we know to keep moving forward in spite of the stunted environments around us.
It ain't pretty, but it's life.
What are your thoughts?
I'm a writer, a mother, a wife, a friend, a sister, and a daughter. My journey as a published author is in full swing and I'm inviting all my friends along for the ride!