Ghosts

It's just a whisper below the surface,
inescapable and maddening beyond imagination.
Push it down to make it disappear,
but that's not a permanent solution.

You drown in the fear and doubt,
it's constant despite what you know is true.
Still your mind betrays everything,
you become someone that only looks like you.

I wish I had the answers,
if there was anything to make it go away.
But I am truly broken,
there's nothing else I can do or say.

We've all heard of skeletons,
but no one talks about the ghosts.
They possess everything,
destroying the things that matter most.

I'm tired of being haunted,
driven mad by pain that should be gone.
None of it should matter anymore,
it's been much too long.

How do I banish them?
I need to be able to breathe again.
So tired of suffocating,
choking on what happened then.

If this doesn't change,
I'll lose everything I've worked so hard for.
If I can't fix my broken mind,
the world will crash around me for sure.

​-Lisa Logue